id love to read what the 12yr old you was writing... im sure it would be like.... "yep... there she is!"...your style hatching out like a face hugger ready to grow into the alien queen.
At any rate, since it was during the satanic panic craze my mother tried to get me institutionalized, and I had to write in English classes very strict, then I lost interest, they demoted me to special education and I had my actual grandfather teach me Latin, and they promoted me back into regular English. Because it was so bloody, and realistic because of my interest in anatomy, they thought something was terribly wrong with me. This region in California at the time was very conservative, religious, had over 30+ churches more than Starbucks. A lot people believed in arranged marriages in the religious sector still. Very cult like. I'm NC with my mom now for various reasons, but yeah, I think if I ever did rewrite it, it would be adult because there's so many old traditional thinking in it, it can feel dystopian even if at the time, it wasn't far fetched.
I was really afraid of writing for a long time. Emil got me out of my shell slowly and became my editor and taught me how to create my own prose because English was very traumatic for me. Satanic panic was a weird time. I know they don't go crazy over shit like this anymore. But for us kids, we basically had to censor ourselves because of culty religions, and my mom who suffers from NPD really wanted me to mirror her. Think cupids and lots of little house on the prairie, she thought I was evil because I liked Dracula and Frankenstein and even..Jane Eyre which is insane if you think about it. Oh no not a woman with a mind of her own. The horrors.
we had this when I grew up - the Cleveland Satanic Child Abuse Scandal - this was a big deal in the county where and when I grew up - incredible really, when you look back at it. America does seem to suffer from religious madness a lot more than we do - shit you had to go through it so close up and personal.
We probably dont htink of ourselves as evil - but I do wonder where the dark thoughts come from. I have to stop myself jumping off high things, or crashing the car with everyone in it - or thinking - thats a good place for a body to go - I mean - where does that come out from?
It was based in a historical forest in Russia and the MC befriended terrifying mutilated ghosts to defeat her immortal grandfather, who was attempting to make Frankenstein creations out of people, and she acquired friends from the underworld to do this, and all the ghosts died from her grandfather's hands so they were really grotesque looking, there was also a lot of misogyny she had to navigate, and traditions, anyway, that book got me banned from scholarships and publications in my area because what 12 year old writes that. The girl who won over me wrote about an apple tree or something simple like that.
As always, its best to make some time and space to read your writing slowly, like chewing your food well, you dont want to get indigestion, you want to savour the flavours in it. The visual quality of your work is really something else - do you have to get yourself into some sort of zen state before you turn on the inkwell?
What got me in this one and made me start from the beginning was I assumed the protagonist was effectively you and thus female and its not till quite a way in you realise she's a he. You set a film running that I want to see on a screen, not just on the inside of my eyes, basically, and its simply not acceptable that nobody will actually make this film. Brainmovie it is, until then.
So many hints about the society that this is set in are really tantalising - the AI wiping out christian neocons - (yes please) the dichotomy of the two city states, the body changing nanotech viruses (did I get that right?) - I like this line the best :-
"Whatever he was, the only human part of him was the past."
Sometimes I write without music but most times I write with music. It just depends on the context. I have to be completely in my thoughts, but it does often play like a film. I spent a lot of time as a young child day dreaming and writing a lot. I attempted my first novel at 12, was mostly isolated I think it stopped at 190 pgs. It's poorly written but for 12, it's conceptually alive. Maybe I'd rewrite it one day and do a Clive Barker ish YA novel. But that world was so grotesque probably have to stay in adult.
Yes, I rarely write from a man's perspective, so this is definitely going to be interesting as he descends into madness. Remember there's one word that hasn't been mentioned yet it will be in part two.
Yes you got that right. And that's also Emil's favorite line too.
The corpse stench lifts up from your nose, so you’ll smoke a cigarette. A replacement for that long virus. That’s my favorite line
That was also one of my favorite lines to write.
Jesus Christ the mood of this piece gets me.
id love to read what the 12yr old you was writing... im sure it would be like.... "yep... there she is!"...your style hatching out like a face hugger ready to grow into the alien queen.
At any rate, since it was during the satanic panic craze my mother tried to get me institutionalized, and I had to write in English classes very strict, then I lost interest, they demoted me to special education and I had my actual grandfather teach me Latin, and they promoted me back into regular English. Because it was so bloody, and realistic because of my interest in anatomy, they thought something was terribly wrong with me. This region in California at the time was very conservative, religious, had over 30+ churches more than Starbucks. A lot people believed in arranged marriages in the religious sector still. Very cult like. I'm NC with my mom now for various reasons, but yeah, I think if I ever did rewrite it, it would be adult because there's so many old traditional thinking in it, it can feel dystopian even if at the time, it wasn't far fetched.
shit on grandma.
thats a lot for a kid to deal with.
I was really afraid of writing for a long time. Emil got me out of my shell slowly and became my editor and taught me how to create my own prose because English was very traumatic for me. Satanic panic was a weird time. I know they don't go crazy over shit like this anymore. But for us kids, we basically had to censor ourselves because of culty religions, and my mom who suffers from NPD really wanted me to mirror her. Think cupids and lots of little house on the prairie, she thought I was evil because I liked Dracula and Frankenstein and even..Jane Eyre which is insane if you think about it. Oh no not a woman with a mind of her own. The horrors.
we had this when I grew up - the Cleveland Satanic Child Abuse Scandal - this was a big deal in the county where and when I grew up - incredible really, when you look back at it. America does seem to suffer from religious madness a lot more than we do - shit you had to go through it so close up and personal.
We probably dont htink of ourselves as evil - but I do wonder where the dark thoughts come from. I have to stop myself jumping off high things, or crashing the car with everyone in it - or thinking - thats a good place for a body to go - I mean - where does that come out from?
It was based in a historical forest in Russia and the MC befriended terrifying mutilated ghosts to defeat her immortal grandfather, who was attempting to make Frankenstein creations out of people, and she acquired friends from the underworld to do this, and all the ghosts died from her grandfather's hands so they were really grotesque looking, there was also a lot of misogyny she had to navigate, and traditions, anyway, that book got me banned from scholarships and publications in my area because what 12 year old writes that. The girl who won over me wrote about an apple tree or something simple like that.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE????? stifling such a mind!!
As always, its best to make some time and space to read your writing slowly, like chewing your food well, you dont want to get indigestion, you want to savour the flavours in it. The visual quality of your work is really something else - do you have to get yourself into some sort of zen state before you turn on the inkwell?
What got me in this one and made me start from the beginning was I assumed the protagonist was effectively you and thus female and its not till quite a way in you realise she's a he. You set a film running that I want to see on a screen, not just on the inside of my eyes, basically, and its simply not acceptable that nobody will actually make this film. Brainmovie it is, until then.
So many hints about the society that this is set in are really tantalising - the AI wiping out christian neocons - (yes please) the dichotomy of the two city states, the body changing nanotech viruses (did I get that right?) - I like this line the best :-
"Whatever he was, the only human part of him was the past."
Sometimes I write without music but most times I write with music. It just depends on the context. I have to be completely in my thoughts, but it does often play like a film. I spent a lot of time as a young child day dreaming and writing a lot. I attempted my first novel at 12, was mostly isolated I think it stopped at 190 pgs. It's poorly written but for 12, it's conceptually alive. Maybe I'd rewrite it one day and do a Clive Barker ish YA novel. But that world was so grotesque probably have to stay in adult.
Yes, I rarely write from a man's perspective, so this is definitely going to be interesting as he descends into madness. Remember there's one word that hasn't been mentioned yet it will be in part two.
Yes you got that right. And that's also Emil's favorite line too.